the closest of friends.
pagesofmyhistory: we’ve been through so much, just to fall down so fast
if you’re reading my blog, as always. do you feel as horrible as i always feel? i failed more than seven times in friendships, that makes me a total failure in relationships altogether.
her vocals are so amazing. it’ll not be easy, Van be stronger.
i’m lost. everything became so unclear. i really want to appreciate so many areas in my life, but certain things just stop me so. a heart that has grown cold and hardened, as the world has became scarier than i thought.
I suck as a friend, esp to you. I’m sorry.– Van
“You’ve changed.” “oh…really?” “I noticed it too, i’ve changed to a horrible person actually.” “oh.”
I would tremble and tear when i think about you.– Yours truly
i asked me, “why am i so scare of love?– Me
as usual, i did some thinking. it seems that i’ve entered another stage of changes. i’m different, really different. i can hardly care how are my friends doing, i can hardly sms anyone for a week, i can hardly start a convo with anyone except ruiliang and some classmates, i can hardly focus and listen to anyone’s craps, i can hardly take in any advices, & finally, i hate...
First day of school,
it feels good to be back in school, nice classmates, new lecturers and projects. what else can i ask for?hah. sometimes, i look at couples &i envy them. sometimes, i hear how goodfriends became couples &i admire them. sometimes, i hear how couples go thru thick and thin &i salute them. relationships are like, “…can see but cannot touch” for me. is it fear?i think...
this is a time when I want someone to hug me tight and tell me school will be...– Van
i could still remember your 18th, it was amazing. i just hope you will have the same for your 20th, Advanced Happy Birthday. Today, something happened and showed me how stubborn i’ve become. Over the years, closefriends would tell me how stubborn i’m and how much i will make a stand for what i believe in. i guess as i get older, i became more stubborn. &this stubbornness has got...
trust me there wasn’t a year that’s as good as 2010, i’m glad...– vann
somehow, the blog bug which used to bug me have left. yup, to be honest i do not have any inspirations to blog or whatsoever but to keep this blog alive i shall blog about some nonsenses. “it’s been a long time since i find anything common between you and me.” “oh really?what is it?” “Don’t be offended.” “No worries, i won’t.”...